I’ve always been a natural observer.
With my ascendant in Scorpio and my moon in Aquarius, I’ve always watched life with suspicion and wonder from the sidelines. I observe people’s words, actions, character and behavior.
First, to feel safe and to have a sense of control over the uncontrollable. I wanted to know how not to upset people. I also aimed to navigate through life independently and without having to say NO to someone.
Second, I had the drive from an early age to truly understand humans, how we act in the world, and why. I wanted to understand all of our motivations, and I wasn’t scared to see the dark and hidden. I was actually more curious to look deep and dig even deeper. The deeper the emotions, the more real the world appeared to me.
I learned later to observe first myself. Understanding and healing my own wounds were my greatest lessons. And this helped me to understand further what I see and feel around me even more.
Figuring out that I not only feel my own emotions and feelings, but also often those of the people around me, was another layer of understanding and discovery. As my shamanic vision and perception of the unseen world opened more consciously, I began to see all the things that have been suppress and hidden for ages – the dark secrets and the lost knowledge I started to see the connection between all these layers and parts of existence. I learned to listen to the unspoken and to those who don’t have a loud voice.
Over the last nine and a half years of treating people, I have seen, felt and listened to a wide range of human experiences. Although we all ultimately want to be seen, heard, and loved, each person carries an individual life story and soul essence. The way life is weaving paths is a wonder to me while t is based on universal laws.
And I ‘m still learning almost every day something new- it makes me feel alive. I’m learning to see and feel more without losing my center.
Lately, I have been enjoying observing nature more and more. I love observing my natural environment, with all its plants, trees and inhabitants, and I feel honoured to be a guest there. I observe them and listen to their messages. Their wisdom.
It is our wisdom too, living within us. It is the wisdom of the sacredness of life, of growth and decay, of birth and death, of the moment and infinity. It calms me down, soothes me, and fills me with awe almost every day.
But I don’t just love to watch and listen. I want to be part of it. And all parts of me start to realize I AM.
I love life on Earth. I love life in my body. I am life. And after all the observing, understanding, healing and integration, I reconnect more deeply and bow my head even more to nature and every creation.
With all my the love and heart, Agneta
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